its over

Its over! finally! The hell first semester is over with. I almost can't even believe how happy I feel. I just want to throw myself a party & celebrate life again. I don't understand how I made it through I can't think of one time when I felt like i was in control of anything. I'm so sick because I ate too much in celebration. who-hoo!

I can't wait until next semester! It is going to feel so good to not have to teach! It s amzing to think that I will probably be taking 3 classes and it will be realxing compared to what this semester turned out to be. HA! I almost laugh! it will be flippin' awesome! YE-HA! well now I am really done writing tonight

almost done

yeah I'm almost done! I have their portfolios graded and all of my assignments done.. all that is left is their final. Yeah!!! I am almost done I can't even handle how excited I am. I am going to have a mini party.. not really, but I will be really happy.

Portfolios

I am collecting portfolios today, and i have decided that I am going to be very strict with the due date. Mainly because I don't have time to deal with late stuff. Oh WELL! If its not in by 5'oclock, then tuff s*** they don't pass my class. I am only really worried about a couple of students trying to ask for extensions, but they are not going to get them. I am sick of some students not being able to prioritize. It bothers me, and then they tell me its my fault. GRRRR. I never once blamed a professor for not getting my homework done, after all it wasn't their fault I couldn't do it. Apparently responsibility is not something that kids today are able to learn. They expect the world to revolve around them. I blame the no child left behind act, after all I felt very prepared for college along with many of my other classmates. We were well prepared, but now these kids suck! they absolutly suck! Maybe if high schools stopped spoon feeding them they could make it through one semester of college.
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Over whelmed again

So I will have a final to grade, portfolios, and journals.. I think I am going to hyperventilate. I', sooo sick of being overwhelmed by reading horrible student writing. The only good thing I have to report is that I don't think a lot of sutdents are planning on revising thier work so grading should be fast on the portfolio. Hopefully. If I have a lot of revisions I'm going to cry. At least I have all of my stuff done. If I am lucky grading will go fast. But luck is never really on myself. I hope I never have to grade another paper ever again! I hate reading bad writing, I think I have actually become stupid after reading so many of them. I have read commentaries that relate Papert's argument to porn and only god knows what else. GAH! that's all I have to say GAH! I can't wait to go away for 13 days! 13 days with no worries, no family, no school, no nothing! Oh well I guess I just need a break.

Here we go again

Well the end is near, but it still seems so far a way. My students are agian bombarding me with e-mail with questions that are clearly laid out in the portfolio handout- I really won't miss that. I feel like everthing went by so fast, but two weeks ago it felt like the semester was never going to end! I am now too excited about my trip its sooo hard concentrate, however with the crazy amount of work I have to do it helps keep me off of cloud 9.

Tired

I am soo tired. This teaching stuff isn't all its cracked up to be. I don't remember the last time I went to bed before 3 am, and its not like I'm out at the bar partying! Which right now the bar or even going out seems like a faint memory. I am burried beneath a pile of papers, folders, and books. If it were possible to stress your self to death I am sure I would have reached that point about 3 weeks ago. I haven't even been close to my normal goofy self lately, this teaching stuff really brings out the worse in me. I can't remember the last time I was this pesimistic. I'm crabby, tired, and straight up unhappy. If something else goes wrong right now I seriously think that I will just crawl into my bed and never come out again.

Worried

Ok, There is no way I am going to get all of my stuff done! Its just impossible! There is no way! I can't even breath thinking about everything that I have to get done in the next week. Its sick! I don't know if I can even do the academic portfolio yet. I think I have my stuff put together for the teaching portfolio its just a matter of organizing it. I really can't believe how overwhelmed I am right now. I just want to cry and hide in a corner. When I get on the plane to head south it's going to be the most relaxing 14 hours of my life! no worries no family, no school.. just bliss!

Grrr

ok! I just recieved an e-mail from a student telling me his "parents need him home as soon as possible" so he can't turn in his papers and revisions before he leaves. YEAH RIGHT! this is code for I don't want to be in class and i'm lazy. I really don't even want to accept his commentary. I told him it would be late, and I almost told him that is vague excuse is bullshit (pardon my language) but I was responsible and told him"Its your grade." I don't know how he thinks this a problem for me-- except for the fact that I am going to have to read his flipping commentary a week after I have finished grading the rest of the classes! That's enough to make me want to not accpet the stupid paper! Grrrrr. Well I am done venting now. I am just so sick of reading bad writing and trying to find something nice to say about it. HORRIBLE! HORRiBLE!!! I hate grading papers I really truly hate it! well that's enough of that. I'm going to quit complaining now. Well SPell check isn't workin again.